As life would have it, all things are the same and there is nothing new under the sun! Ecclesiastes 1:9 reminded me of this very statement written only the way God can illustrate: “The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done; and there is no new thing under the sun.”
Several months have passed since my last blog and a lot of things has taken place both in the world and in my life as well. I have experience some happy days and many sad days. I have had some failures throughout the months and some successes. I made some progress on various goals and projects as I have endured some setbacks. I have even grieved the tragedy loss of my stepson from a brutal shooting and I had the amazing joy of the birth of a beautiful step granddaughter. So many things to cause me to lose focus by giving up on some of my midlife dreams and throwing away that little chip of mustard seed faith I have been holding on for dear life, I mean forever!
The media has been overwhelmingly bombarded with the turmoil of domestic abuse, senseless killings, homelessness and people everywhere who are economically deprived nothing new, right? You are right, but what makes this time more noticeable or unavoidable than other times or these times greater than the past, I ask? I woke up with this on my mind probably because it is what I went to sleep with or should I say did not sleep at all because of the very things that were lurking on my mind.
Was it because of how my enemy disguised as a love one who vowed to love and protect me, but finds a way at every awaking moment to tear me down and attempt to destroy everything I worked hard to own, overcome and break through? Or perhaps another family member who would say negative things about me to another, Go figure. Knocking at the door of the fall time of my life where I had planned to enjoy my special moments in time, that is, my each and every moment in time. I want to savor or experience that distinctive quality only that unique instant provides. Albeit, Grandchildren, Family, Travel, Writing, Exploring and Engaging in Creative Endeavors where ever that may lead. Here I am, yet again feeling the uneasiness of these dooms feelings of abuse attempting to raise its ugly head again in my life, nothing new. Oh no, not the physical abuse again if that is what you may be thinking, Lord’s forbids!
However, there are many other subtle yet obvious ways abuse have a way of slipping into one’s life. Yeah, It’s in the book; it is in the book and will take me off topic here! Nevertheless, what I experienced an evening, not long ago that interrupted my sleep was something ah so familiar, nothing new by no means under the sun. I was feeling unloved, disrespected, insulted, unappreciated and yes figuratively speaking abused and no matter how it is dressed up or masked, it is still abuse. One thing for sure being an Author, Survivor, Mentor and Advocate on the subject, I know and have lived with domestic abuse and domestic violence.
I must admit and give credit to Elton John and Tim Rice for this beautiful song the “Circle of Life” In the Lion King of the reflective lyrics and it’s insightful impact:
“From the day we arrive on the plant and blinking, step into the sun there’s more to see than can ever be seen, more to do than can ever be done, there’s far too much to take in here more to find than can ever be found but the sun rolling high through the sapphire sky, keeps great and small on the endless round.
It’s the Circle of Life and it moves us all through despair and hope through faith and love till we find our place on the path unwinding in the Circle the Circle of Life”—
However, The Ultimate Credit must be given at all time to God for His Saving Grace, His Mercy, His Strength, His Un-wavering Love and for His Infinite Wisdom. I found all of this in Ecclesiastes 3:1-9.
“To everything there is a season, and A time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born and A time to die; A time to plant, and A time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and A time to heal; A time to break down, and A time to build up;
A time to weep, and A time to laugh; A time to mourn, and A time to dance;
A time to cast away stones and A time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and A time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and A time to lose; A time to keep and A time to cast away;
A time rend, and A time to sew; A time to keep silence, and A time to speak;
A time to love, and A time to hate; A time of war and A time of peace!
This scripture profoundly displays how God predetermined the events of life. As it has proven with my life, it has truly been one big circle. As the Lord continues to help me to keep my right mind about myself when I am faced with difficult life situations that are continuously changing yet remaining the same no matter how beautiful or complex they are. I must say that whatever state I am in at this moment in time, I am committed to settle in and savor every minute from this point forward to embrace what God predetermine for my life seasons that I have left no matter who does not like or has a problem with it!~
It is Time that I am LOVED for who I am not for what I do
It is Time that I am APPRECIATED and not taken for granted
It is Time that I am CELEBRATED and not tolerated
It is Time my Talents are GREATLY VALUED by those who seek them
It is Time that I position myself to be among GIVERS instead of takers
It is Time I surround myself by those who RECOGNIZE my worth without sapping the life out of me
It is Time that I plant myself among ENCOURAGING & POSITIVE friends & family instead of being around those who give out negative and disheartening put-downs
It is Time that the Quality of Love I Unselfishly Gives to so many is UNSELFISHLY RETURNED unto me
This is My Time and This is My Life!
The Circle of Life ~ There Is Nothing New Under The Sun!